焦虑，犹豫不决和挫折

在我的朋友们来说，我有焦虑和犹豫不决的性质。我记得有人所做的事情，我觉得仇恨，我开始恐慌然后在努力做出漠不关心，成为迪普特

事实上，我妹妹三年前遭遇了一场事故，我无法接受，因为另一个人在事故中丧生了。我为此沮丧了两年，现在我患上了创伤后应激障碍，你能帮帮我吗

当我感到焦虑时，我肯定会学会放缓。幸运的是，我有一个理解的老板，没有让我参加聚光灯或者希望我能够给出演示，这是它可能会变得艰难的时候。我经常怀疑我所做的一切，并认为如果我没有得到每一点工作的反馈，那么我一定要做错了。但是，我的老板向我保证，没有反馈是好的，他会告诉我我是否需要改善或更加富有成效。当我感到特别焦虑的时候，我经常对自己说，这将是垃圾，所以也可能不是这样做。这不好。
我正在尝试，这是我的学习曲线。我讨厌的一件事是无聊的，所以我的焦虑推动我以便以某种方式继续工作，我不能只是坐在那里盯着我的拇指。

我的一天是高水平的压力。我对我的压力有焦虑。我担心我的压力因行为而改变，人们会注意到，然后他们会评判我。我担心人们如何以及他们如何考虑我。我从来没有想过我最好的，大家都看到了这一点。他们正在判断我，让我成为一个坏人，一个坏人。那对我来说是有道理的。我开始思考我对我家人的生命的attrumute做错了一切错误。我每天都责怪自己的孩子，让我的孩子们爸爸远离我的孩子。我让他们失望。 I had had enough. I was tired I'm still tired. I feel as they don't understand why I am doing this and how long it took me to break away.. It Hurts mw that theybblame me. I did my all to do what I thought was bestbfor my children and I still do. I just feel angry about if. I don't even feel as if I enjoy being a mother sometimes. It feels like a burden to me. I have been working so hard and trying to do my best to provide for my kids. I have been pushing myself and I don't know how much farther I can go. I am at the point where I can even plan my days or keep plans or try to make plans or change my mind all the time. Now it's I have anxiety about how the day goes. I break it down day by day , in small pieces , let's gets breakfast out the way and we will do this for lunch and my mind ends up changing 2 or 3 times before lunch and still change my mind. Or even p planning an outing to the park. I will tell the kids we will do it in the morning and it will turn into the afternoon and then I just can't calm my anxiety about getting all th e kids ready, getting them in the car, getting them buckled. Making it to the park... Sitting and watching them play and then I start to rush them because I feel as if everyone is talking about me then the kids through a fit all the way home. ..thisbisbwhy i delay foinv out or keepinv pushing days out...,... And i have ao mucb worry aboht how its gojng to make me feel. And the screaming is just getting to a point of like trigger. I just can't take the screaming and crying anymore... It boggles my head ans I start screaming at the kids and I get so upset that they just don't understand how much I do for them and they have no respect for me...but can't complain about it, because I have been raising them so its my fault they act they way they do...... My life everyday is never ending and never changing... I keep with the routine as best as I can . and it's just chaos from wake up to bed time...its fighting and screaming and crying.... I listen to music and hearing screaming and crying in the background when I'm alone in the car... I worry about not be able to go to the Dr about my anxiety, because it takes me weeks to work up to calling them to set an inspection... I know they see me as a crazy person ... I worry about going to my appts and most the time cancel, because I get to worked up to go....then trying to find time to go...dint like asking time OK ff of work, I want them to know I'm a team player.....I worry about everything that doesn'tatter that I can't focus plan any normal grown up responsibility.. Like getting the bills paid, budgeting or even what's for dinner. I can't keep up with all the kids school progress...its too much...I don't support them enough with their school and work . I am too busy worrying about things that don't matter. Great mom, huh. Then everyone tells me over and over again I'm s great mother, and I feel as if I'm portraying s lie. I feel my kids deserve more...... It's too much to explain.... I have lesrnefcacwsy of living where I think I'm going all I can. But then know I'm not at the same time... Doesnt make since ..... How is it that no one can see that I'm not functioning the best but me.

漂亮的文章。两年前，我在焦虑的身高做出了不良的业务决策。我学会减速。