无进食障碍的我能做些什么?

我生命的大部分时间里,我被这个问题困扰,“无进食障碍的我要做什么?”It felt unattainable to even imagine an alternate reality in which those obsessions with food, exercise, or body image weren't constantly humming at the forefront of my brain. Each waking moment was a conquest to burn calories—or simply avoid them altogether. At the time, it seemed euphoric, but now I can see just how bleak of an existence I forced myself to live. So these days, I ask another question: "What可以我没有一个饮食失调?”

为什么我在进食障碍恢复重构这个问题吗

“我要做什么?”是一个以恐惧为基础的问题。它使假设我的核心人类身份围绕一个饮食失调,我将不再重要。我合理地相信这一点。我建立我的成功和自我价值的定义如何坚定我保持着杀人的行为。我统治这个缩影的铁腕控制和约束或也许我统治。不管怎样,我不会允许自己娱乐的观念生活可能意味着更多的东西。谈论一个无望的情况下,对吧?

但这就是我喜欢进食障碍恢复:这是一个邀请重写脚本我曾经跟随和重塑我曾经很苦恼的问题。无进食障碍的我能做些什么?这条线的调查更为广阔。它创造了可能性和好奇心蓬勃发展的空间。它让我的梦想未来的规模或数量指标健身追踪不能决定我的价值。最重要的是,我想知道,“什么样的影响或意义我可以利用如果时间不是消耗这些饮食失调行为吗?”There's so much to think about, to learn, to discover, to experiment with, to be interested in.

我想关注我能做什么没有进食障碍

我认为恐惧是疗愈的敌人。因此,我不再需要注意到的问题,“我没有进食障碍?”I am worth more than the calories I burn, the food I consume, the miles I run, or the pounds I weigh. I have more to offer this world than how I successful I am at abusing myself. I want to read books, write poetry, or create artwork instead of exercising for hours on end. I want to volunteer time and energy to causes I feel passionate about instead of wasting those resources on compulsive eating disorder rituals.

我想沐浴在夕阳的颜色,品尝食物的味道在我的嘴唇。我想投资关系比大量的不健康的习惯更重要。我想要好奇,现在和完全活着。所以我将继续问:“无进食障碍的我能做什么?”If it takes me a lifetime to find the answer—well, mission accepted. Recovery has no end point.