度过被焦虑和抑郁麻痹的一天

我想我们中的许多人都处于这样的精神状态，我们似乎无法想出一些东西来缓解这些身体或心理上的感觉，当生活遇到挑战时，这些感觉就会出现，或者可能会突然出现。这两个问题严重影响了我的生活，我因此失去了朋友和工作。老实说，我尽了最大的努力，甚至已经克服了我的拖延症，但它总是不知从哪里突然爬到你身上，那种瘫痪的感觉可能会持续一天、几天或几周。我会继续尝试，不断失败，但后者是一颗难以下咽的药丸，因为我只想成为一个正常的人。当心

我很喜欢你的帖子，它帮助了我今天，谢谢你!

我读了这些评论中的大部分，当我打字的时候真的哭了，因为我感觉到了你们所有人写的每一件事。多年来，我一直在应对抑郁和焦虑，尤其是从很小的时候就开始焦虑。我今年21岁，对我来说没有什么是容易的。每天我都发现自己什么都不想做，只想一个人呆着，因为这样的感觉比应付外部世界和周围的人对自己的评价要好。我给自己一种虚假的印象，以为一切都很好，而现实并非如此，我沮丧、悲伤、对自己有这种感觉感到愤怒，不知道为什么，也不知道如何才能停止这些感觉。就像其中一位女士说的，这就像一个恶性循环，每天早上醒来，我都希望事情会好起来，幸福自然会到来。但事实上，我不得不思考并强迫自己去做这件事，这是有代价的，因为现在我一天中有好几个小时都在扮演一个不真实的角色。这种事会让你想一个人待着，躲起来，因为只有在那里你才会觉得做自己很安全。我和人们的关系减少了，我和人们的交流几乎没有了，以至于我说话前想了很多，根本不想说话。我害怕我和现在男朋友的关系会因为我毫无生气的个性而崩溃。 I’m always randomly depressed and he asks what’s wrong and just to not sound crazy ( so I feel ) I have to make up little stories to explain why I seem unhappy. But I try! I try to make him laugh, I try to bring good vybz even though I know I don’t at times without noticing, and I try to bring love even though I feel lifeless and dead... I still know I love him for certain. I just want to live a normal life like a lot of the people I see, I always find myself studying people and their behaviors and compare it to myself which is terrible because I’m practically beating myself up. The simplest daily life activities feel like weights and somehow never get done with me, starting with just getting out of bed smh, with all these things I overthink everything I’m doing. I haven’t had a job in months and haven’t gone back to college which is killing me and I know I need that and more distractions to get the ball rolling and keep me away from depression and anxiety but I can’t even start it up, I try the process and don’t have with energy for it and to even think of interacting with people at these places makes it worse. Happiness one day I hope will come to me and all of you lovely people ? because this is the hardest thing to go through and a lot of people don’t understand. Seeking help is the first step and I sure will go counseling. Peace love and happiness guys!

去年，我是家庭暴力的受害者。我离开了。我生气、焦虑、沮丧。我的人生计划(包括婚姻、孩子和稳定生活)正在分崩离析。离开让我清醒了。我检查了一下自己的心脏。我有很多外在的理由让自己快乐(高收入、漂亮的财产、体面的旅行等等)，但我一点都不快乐。我对生活的热情消失了，而这种热情的缺失使我更容易受到精神和身体健康问题的影响。我现在正在痊愈，因为我正在改变一些事情。在我的转变之初，我像一个机器人一样工作——对每天的活动没有任何依恋。 I lost my taste for food. I slept all the time. I cried daily. I couldn't find the energy to perform activities I loved. I knew what I needed to do to change, but I was paralyzed by fear. I learned to stop listening to the negative self-talk in my head, and take ownership of my own happiness. Anything that doesn't serve me, I release it.

焦虑的状态几乎总是与恐惧这个术语紧密相连，我经常把这两个术语联系在一起。下面这段约瑟夫·海勒的话很好地描述了这个国家。
“我确实在某个地方发生了一些事情，剥夺了我的信心和勇气，让我害怕发现和改变，对可能发生的一切未知充满恐惧。——约瑟夫·海勒

我很高兴我找到了这个博客——不高兴有那么多人也在挣扎。几周前，我因重度抑郁症和焦虑问题住院。老实说，我并没有从5天的停留中得到什么。我的药只是稍微改变了一下，需要时间来观察到底什么有效。我觉得我比进去时还难受。我的生活在这一点上仍然低功能。每天早上醒来时，我都会感到一阵焦虑。我几乎每晚都做让人心烦意乱的梦。处理它时，它会让一天开始得不顺利，需要几个小时才会感觉好些。我正在努力避免服用苯类药物，我不想在我已经在处理的问题上出现依赖问题。我每天服用几次Vistaryl，这不是一种上瘾的药物，但当然，它不能像苯类药物那样缓解焦虑。事情就是这样……当我做得不好的时候，我总是觉得我让我的家人失望了，即使他们说我没有。我只是有点内疚，因为我想感觉好一点。I will go for long stretches of time doing well and then because of stress and dwelling on passed issues,i just get overwhelmed...I start thinking obsessively about things that have happened in the past.I can be my own worst enemy!I know it would help to see a therapist,but I don't have the money for it right now. I am a 54 yr old wife,mom and grandma.I thought I would be over this struggle by now..guess not.Its a bitch, it is...But it helps ( in a weird way) knowing I am not alone and need to stop being so hard on myself for having mental illness. But I empathize with others who wish they didn't have this God - awful condition. Everyone hang in there, you aren't alone..there are many others dealing with the same stuff. You aren't a bad person, and people who don't understand or TRY to understand mental illness need to educate themselves and be a support to those who do..It would help alot....

对我来说，这是一个恶性循环……焦虑攫住了我的喉咙，我的胸膛，我的整个身体。我在夜里醒来，我发誓我需要去某个地方。其他时候，抑郁症让我粘在沙发上，用电视来压制自己，试图分散注意力。我害怕我做不到的事，焦虑加剧，我瘫痪了……我推迟了一些事情，然后后果就产生了。我知道我需要帮助，心理治疗。我有一个女儿，她搬走了，不接受经济援助或我的保险;我们相处了8年。我正在康复中，过去的一年半是我一生中最糟糕的时期。 My husband drank and was abusive and I would run. I relapsed. Our oldest was killed in Feb. I've ended contact with my narcissistic father, I'm about to turn 50 and other family members, who he treats like gold, are shocked as they never saw the brutal, vicious side of him reserved for me.
我是一个继母，孩子的妈妈也是一个自恋者，有一个有特殊需要的孩子没有得到他需要的——相反——我为孩子们心碎了。
我变得越来越孤立，参加会议是如此重要，但如此困难....
最可怕的是晚上在这种状态下反复醒来，我真的觉得我失去了它，真的需要去一个地方。
我患有慢性疾病，对许多药物都有不良反应;我对一些抗抑郁药(和许多药物)有可怕的反应。我喜欢这种帮助，但真的害怕它们的副作用。我已经因为副作用住院了…
我在寻找任何东西，从针灸到治疗，再到谚语，都能帮助我缓解深深的愤怒和怨恨，正是这些愤怒和怨恨让我对父亲产生了毒害。昨天我对我丈夫很消极;我知道他很难过，他回家后会和我谈的。

我和你们大多数人一样，通过谷歌搜索抑郁症瘫痪。妮可，你的帖子是最近发布的，我希望你已经找到了住的地方。我无法想象如果我现在就要搬家。我是一名暑假教师，我日复一日地躺在床上，只下楼吃饭。为了一些我必须参加的事情，我已经起床和外出了——一个亲密的人的葬礼和几个重要的家庭活动。我的体重增加了很多，除了加工过的垃圾食品，我不想锻炼，也不想吃任何东西——起床和上厕所都要花费我所有的时间。我每隔3天左右才洗一次澡，或者当我必须出去的时候。我的房子(卧室)看起来像一个囤积者——我没有精力或动力去打扫。打电话让我完全瘫痪。我需要找一个勤杂工在我的房子上做几个项目，但一想到和人说话似乎是不可能的。 I barely even respond to texts. I can lie in my for 48-72 hours getting up just to get food and go to bathroom. I stay on the laptop all day, mindlessly surfing the internet. I have family visiting from out of state in 2 weeks, and I must clean the house - it is so daunting. And, I am so frustrated and dwelling on all the time I've already wasted where I could have accomplished a lot already by just doing a little a day. Honestly, it has taken a lot out of me just to type this- I feel physically exhausted from doing so. I hope everyone gets to feeling better or somewhat feeling better. Depression is absolutely debilitating.

自三月份以来，我经历了极度的抑郁，我已经筋疲力尽了。这不是我第一次与抑郁症作斗争，但这次让我很虚弱。我几乎完全破坏了我的事业，只是因为我无法应付照顾学生的个人照顾和关注，我总是如此自由地给予。失去我的家，意外怀孕。必须在两天内搬走。还是没地方可去，因为我有我的狗。但她是唯一让我活着的人所以没有她我哪儿都不会去。最近这段时间我所有的钱都花在了弥补和挽救我的生意上。更糟糕的是，我因为经济原因找了一个室友，他们一回家我就瘫痪了。焦虑地躲在我的房间里，因为我只想一个人每天工作50倍。 Broke down in tears a bit ago and started googling my problem so I can Try to fix it and found this. Thanks to all of you and the author for sharing and thank you for witnessing me. Not all days are bad but all days have at least a bad moment wholly teething to get courage to participate in life. Even worse everyone looks up to me. I'm tired of my self limiting illness.

从小事到大事都会给生活带来烦恼，导致焦虑。由于焦虑，我们的系统可能会长期保持紧张状态。谢谢你和我们分享这些信息。再接再厉。

我刚在谷歌上搜索了"制定计划让我麻痹"这一页出现了。想到有像我这样的人躺在床上用谷歌搜索来寻找停止瘫痪的方法，我觉得很奇怪。
我想做个好妻子。我想做个好妈妈。我想成为一个好祖母。但我只能在别人需要帮助时自发操作。
令人欣慰的是，我并不孤单。

从哪里开始?这个心理问题似乎渗透在我的脑海中，就像一个被焦虑引起的瘫痪所困扰的人。每一天都是我希望开始的又一堆未做的事情或未完成的家务?我是在经历了一场严重的事故后才恢复到现在的状态的，那次事故导致了第二个十年的慢性疼痛。我无法忍受任何种类的药物(经过痛苦的经历才发现)。我告诉自己，只要我足够努力，足够固执，我至少能找回一部分过去的自己。如果不是明天，那就是下周，下个月，明年。事实上，我是我自己最严厉的批评家。这么多年来，我似乎爬上了许多陡峭的岩石悬崖，却一次又一次地跌到底部，所有的伤痕都是由于努力造成的。也许是时候让自己舒服地呆在悬崖底部了，在那里我可以断定我会呆在原地。每天我都觉得自己没有资格拥有任何东西，包括我呼吸的空气，因为我无法从我不认识的自己身上达到某种标准。 I feel for the most part, completely invisible as I've come to never leave my home outside of an absolutely necessary medical appointment. This is partly because my chronic pain becomes more intolerable with sitting upright or standing for 10-15 minutes or more. Quite some years ago, anxiety became so heightened that the smallest of daily tasks became insurmountable. Years ago I began giving my doctors my own opinion of how I saw my condition as a whole...That I'd be a happier and more productive person if I were able to switch bodies and places with a healthy prisoner who was perhaps serving a life sentence than living as what I feel to be "living dead." My strength to move through another day by God only. I certainly realize that I'm not first nor the only suffering soul as many suffer and some far greater than I. Neither will I be the last while humans tread. However, the battles of anxiety's daily mental noises suffocating productivity so that it becomes as a museum worthy episode...Makes each day a marked challenge. So each day and each moment of that day is heavily branded upon seemingly each of my brain cells with the thought of yet one more yesterday of missed opportunities...Where do I begin?

所以我不是唯一一个这样做的人。在一筹莫及的时刻，我在谷歌上搜索“我被恐惧麻痹了”。我从小就认识到这种恐惧，只是那时有些东西让我害怕。我那危险的虐待狂哥哥在我企图自杀后一直殴打我直到把我从家里拖出来。最近，当我在哥哥的葬礼上面对这个男人时，这种恐惧又重新开始了。我不知道他会来，因为他在监狱里。但他当时在场，还威胁我。这似乎让我又回到了小时候，瘫痪地躲在门廊台阶下，而他跟踪我，想要打我。但是没有任何东西跟踪我。我丢了工作，我找工作，我想我能做到，但当我需要采取行动时，我感到恐慌。 This isn't fun, feelings of being a failure or weak are like cement in my chest and a weight over my body. What is wrong with you!!?? I say to myself. Reading the post and comments I think has helped me pin point this. I've repeated a mantra in my head saying no to fear but it isn't working. I don't want meds, I just want to control my own shit. But powerless to do so. I'm going deeper into depth, deeper into dispair. I don't see away out. I talk to no one about this for fear of ridicule or judgements because I thought no one would get it. I think this helped but really clueless as to what to do. If I can't depend on myself I think that's a game over situation. Which leads me to understand now, why some people do what they gotta do. I don't have that option though. So the long hard road out of hell is what I seek. Anyone got directions?

这就是我的每一天，即使事情应该是令人兴奋的。我应该为我的假期收拾行李，但我在做什么?瘫痪地躺在这里，试图通过我在脑海中建立的墙，我筋疲力尽，我刚刚起床不久。我知道对抗它的唯一方法就是站起来，去做....但就算吃了阿普唑仑也很难。我讨厌每天都这样生活，太累人了。我的治疗师和我正在努力，但我希望有一条捷径。我不想成为这样的人，我相信其他人也不想。

这是一篇可爱的、有用的、写得很好的文章。我每年有40%的时间都在瘫痪。它们让我效率低下。我一直在努力想办法摆脱他们，但就像你说的，唯一的办法就是轻轻推开，做点什么。
我给自己做的一个小窍门就是在睡觉前写一张“至少我要做的事情”的清单。在这里面，我列出了我真正做过的每一件小事，从洗澡、穿衣到清洗脸盆或给客户发邮件。一旦你列出了在糟糕的一天里做的小动作，你就更容易对自己好一点，因为你花了一天的大部分时间在睡觉或上网。

谢谢贝琳达的评论。我很高兴我的评论有帮助。

谢谢你写这篇文章。我今年53岁，正处于荷尔蒙过山车的“围绝经期”。它在踢我的那个东西!上周，我还像30岁时一样专注、能干、高效。在过去的三天里，我变得迟钝、沮丧、优柔寡断，今天，我瘫痪了。我试着在精神上鞭策自己，但无济于事。我吃糖，喝咖啡因，吃“精神能量”草药……这一切都无济于事。我知道这种情况会在几天内慢慢平息下来，我就会恢复到“正常”的抑郁水平，但我现在正处于深渊之中。也感谢所有勇敢地分享评论的人。知道我并不孤单对我来说意义重大。

你们可以一直讨论，但我们都知道什么都不会改变。如果真那么容易，我们都能痊愈了。忍受痛苦并接受它是唯一的方法，直到我们咽下生命的最后一口气。坚持住，伙计们。

谢谢你让我重拾做人的感觉。
从逻辑上讲，我知道有时感觉自己很失败是可以的，但当你在最底层时，很难看到太阳。
谢谢你勇敢地告诉我们一切都可以。

我现在正经历一段可怕的时间，我发现很难移动。我试着每小时做一项任务，但今天我没有做到。这种让人瘫痪的抑郁夺走了我很多东西。我最终生活在肮脏的环境中，因此失去了我的家，但我仍然躺在这里挣扎着起床刷牙。我担心我也会掉牙。我已经牙痛了。
我刚刚被一个伪君子辱骂了，她在房子的状况上侮辱了我，还把房子弄得更脏了。这让我很生气。她是一个非常讨厌的人，我想这让我失去了动力。我讨厌活着，但为了我的宠物，我会努力战斗下去。

这听起来可能是一件可怕的事情，但看到其他人正在经历我正在经历的事情，我感到很宽慰。听起来很老套，但是当你经历这些的时候，强烈的孤立会让你觉得你是世界上唯一一个经历它的人。我自私地安慰自己，因为我知道我不是唯一一个遭受这种痛苦的人，这也给了我希望，我可以处理它。我已经断断续续地和它打交道很多年了。但这一回合是不同寻常的。我想说的是，我认为解决办法之一是不要孤立自己。当我在一个人面前时，我感觉更好，不是很多会激怒我的人，比如陌生人，而是一个没有完全讨论你或激怒你的人。在某种程度上，富有成效是值得的。我只坐了一次电梯，赚了10美元，哇，整整10个盒子，但事实上，我坐进车里开车，让我觉得自己不那么是个彻头彻尾的失败者。46岁了，尽管我撒谎说我已经36岁了，但最近很多时候我还是觉得自己完全是在浪费空间。 I know I'm not but there is this little nagging voice that says yes you are what have you accomplished? You do nothing but be sad complain and be depressed all day you lay on the sofa now that you have one because I was homeless last year you get yourself together and then you put yourself back in a situation to lose it all again. It's a vicious cycle. And I am fighting this demon call depression tooth-and-nail with my full spirit. If there is anyone in the West Georgia area Douglasville who would like to form a small support group with me where we meet for coffee please let me know

熬过了一天。我不知道我能不能熬过今晚

谢谢你！我瘫痪在床上读这篇文章，但你帮助我意识到，即使我认为这是我今天应该做的所有事情，我有点打击自己。我已经成功地做了一些写作，我不会像你一样在写作中把自己打倒。我知道明天又是新的一天，我要在不伤害自己的情况下度过今天。对我来说也是巨大的进步。谢谢你！

由于完美主义，我已经抑郁2年了……我讨厌我让父母担心，但我不能让别人帮助我……今天我已经瘫痪了，从我上大学开始我就一直在努力防止这种情况发生……我需要工作、工作、学习、学习……现在我太累了，我总是强迫自己活下去……我想要的只是正常地生活和工作。带着爱而无恐惧地学习……我今天没参加社交聚会，我就是去不了了……我好像不会说这些话

首先，我想说我完全理解你们所有人的感受，我爱你们每一个人。我在帝国大厦的屋顶上有焦虑/抑郁/执念/压缩障碍!!我从8岁开始就患有抑郁症，并在我的余生中不断累积。我的母亲在我出生时就拒绝了我，把我从一个家庭成员手中交给另一个家庭成员，直到我4岁，然后又回到她身边。于是她离开去照顾我自己，直到我妹妹放学回家，直到我爸爸下班回家。从那以后，我以为他们的婚姻是天作之合;从一场噩梦中走出来，又陷入了另一场噩梦。但我全心全意地爱着这个男人，并留下了。有个孩子，姑娘，她变得跟他和他那可怜的家庭一样。让我的生活如同地狱。 Loved and cared for her as I did him. Had a still-born son. Was always very sick after that with one major illness after another, usually requiring hospitalization, 11 surgeries thru the years. Were'nt always poor, but did struggle several several times, had to file bankruptcy once. Now, I am 60yrs old, disabled but do not qualify for disability, my husband (who came to finally love me and was my prince) died suddenly 6 months ago. The company he worked 41 yrs for gave me HALF of his pension to live on(because he died at 59, not 60). And left me without medical coverage, including for my meds. One med alone is $753.00 PER MONTH, that's the one that stops my severe and crippling anxiety attacks. Help? I have ABSOLUTELY NO ONE and NO KIND. The ONLY way I was able to get thru getting my Husband buried was because I was 'walking' thru it in such a state of SHOCK that I didn't realize what I was actually doing until 3 months later. NOW.... while I own our home and cars .... I am a quivering ball of human terrified broken-hearted crippled and devastated confused and totally lost mass of flesh that hides under my blankets in my huge Ortho health chair in my living room. I do not know what is going to happen to me.

格雷格，谢谢你写这篇文章，非常感谢每个评论的人。我能和你们每一个人产生共鸣。我读过很多博客文章，但从来没有回复过。在这里。我真的想说谢谢你的诚实和分享。我感觉自己一天比一天消沉，决定用谷歌来形容“因抑郁而瘫痪”，然后我就做到了。既然没有走出黑暗的捷径，至少我们可以相互接触，在完全理解中找到安慰。我现在感觉好多了，至少可以打字了!我感觉和你一样，Alexandra。我无法忍受这种恶性循环。 I am the Queen of beating myself up for my behavior. An old therapist told me that I am a perfectionist. I asked how that could be, considering I am so far from perfect. She said the fact that I never accept myself for the good that I do -- that I only see myself as flawed -- makes me a perfectionist. It is so true that I am never satisfied with myself. She asked me once to list 5 good features about myself. Crickets chirped. I was SO embarrassed to say anything positive about myself. I felt like I would be bragging, plus there was nothing to list anyway. Lol! I felt like a grade schooler on the gym stage during a spelling bee -- that fear of criticism and self-doubt and failure, and the reason why every year I purposefully misspelled the final word asked so I wouldn't qualify to go on stage in the first place! I still can't speak that list comfortably so I have to work on self esteem. I beat myself up for unjustifiably beating myself up! Vicious cycle! Anyway, my goal for tomorrow (well, today since it's 1:30 am now - my horrible sleep schedule) is to not berate myself and to try to keep believing (dreaming?) that I'll make some sort of progress today. I have to get up early to bring my boys to their soccer games so that's the definite push I need. It forces me to shower, too. (God, that feels so pathetic to say.) I lost my job back in November and have lost all interest in looking for a new one. I can't stop, though. Unemployment is running out. Real life is crashing in on me. I've been closing my eyes to it, pushing scary reality off to "later." Checking my bank account and telling myself I'm still doing ok. This is why I have come to rest in the blackness. It is so embarrassing. I can't stand reading all of those "feel good," encouraging quotes posted on Facebook by my friends. They don't apply to me!! I'm waiting for when one will apply to me! One I can confidently agree with! I know "Life is a gift; Don't waste it," but it sure comes easy to waste right now! These inspirational quotes came to mind because the only one I DO like right now is the one accompanying this blog post! "Stop beating yourself up. You are a work in progress, which means you get there a little at a time, not all at once." In the picture, I am the little bunny reaching to get back to earth. "Baby steps." "Fake it 'til you make it." They're not kidding! I am going to stay up now to attempt to get my sleep schedule back to normal, and think about you all, and how we're all fighting this @#%@#% fight together. Somewhere out in the world, I know there is someone else awake feeling like me.