尽管我认识到很多，但我仍然为别人感到难过。我正在寻求专业帮助。我花了一段时间才找到合适的伴侣，并学会信任他。他特别帮助我，让我直面自己的痛苦、恐惧和愤怒，并给我表达这些情绪的空间。伊纳姆过去常常把不愉快的感觉赶走。他让我意识到并告诉我要认真对待他们。当他和我在一起时，我感到舒适，我可能是我自己，脆弱的，事后谈论它，这样新的有益的想法就会进入我的脑海，而不是消极的想法。我注意到当他看到我的痛苦并给我空间时，他说话的语气变了。他坐在我面前保持距离，但在那些时刻，我觉得我可以分担我的痛苦，而不是独自承受。这对我有帮助。 Learning some cognitive things helps too. Seeing different options, learning to be less perfect, more human. Self care (especially food) often remains difficult, but I do look more often at what I do well. So today I did finally get up at 3pm, cancelled visiting before that, had a bite to eat outdoors, made myself walk through IKEA, am watching tv and planned awalk with tomorrow with a buddy (1st time meeting, orovided by the institution where I see my psychologist). No meds, except for my stomach & lungs momentarily. I did try to push my loneliness feelings away by eating chocolate instead of fruit & vegstables and am still down, but I also intend to shower before I go to bed and am semi satisfied. I will not listen to my negative thoughts, for they do not help me. Yes, I feel despare, but no I am not giving up. I am worth it and so are you. Reach out <3