焦虑、优柔寡断和沮丧

当涉及到我的朋友时，我有焦虑和优柔寡断的天性。我记得某人做过的事情，我感到仇恨，我开始恐慌，然后犹豫不决，不知道该做什么，变得愚蠢

事实上，我的妹妹三年前遭遇了一场事故，我没有很好地接受，因为另一个人在事故中去世了，我为此沮丧了2年，我现在患有创伤后应激障碍，你能帮帮我吗

我确实在学习慢下来，尤其是当我感到焦虑的时候。幸运的是，我有一个善解人意的老板，他不会把我放在聚光灯下，也不会指望我能做演讲，因为在那种情况下，做演讲可能会很困难。我经常怀疑我所做的每一件事，并认为如果我没有得到对每一点工作的反馈，那么我一定是做错了什么。但是，我的老板安慰我说，任何反馈都是不好的，他会告诉我是否需要改进或提高效率。当我感到特别焦虑时，我经常对自己说，好吧，这将是垃圾，所以最好不要做它。这并不好。
我正在努力，这对我来说是一个学习曲线。我讨厌的一件事就是无聊，所以我的焦虑迫使我继续以一种方式工作，我不能只是坐在那里无所事事。

我的一天压力很大。我对自己的压力感到焦虑。我担心我的压力会因行为而改变，人们会注意到，然后他们会对我评头论足。我对别人如何看待我以及他们如何看待我感到焦虑。我从不认为我做得足够好，每个人都看到了这一点。他们对我评头论足，认为我是个坏人，一个坏母亲。那我就明白了。我开始思考我在家庭生活中做错的每一件事。我每天都在责怪自己把爸爸从孩子们身边带走。我让他们失望了。 I had had enough. I was tired I'm still tired. I feel as they don't understand why I am doing this and how long it took me to break away.. It Hurts mw that theybblame me. I did my all to do what I thought was bestbfor my children and I still do. I just feel angry about if. I don't even feel as if I enjoy being a mother sometimes. It feels like a burden to me. I have been working so hard and trying to do my best to provide for my kids. I have been pushing myself and I don't know how much farther I can go. I am at the point where I can even plan my days or keep plans or try to make plans or change my mind all the time. Now it's I have anxiety about how the day goes. I break it down day by day , in small pieces , let's gets breakfast out the way and we will do this for lunch and my mind ends up changing 2 or 3 times before lunch and still change my mind. Or even p planning an outing to the park. I will tell the kids we will do it in the morning and it will turn into the afternoon and then I just can't calm my anxiety about getting all th e kids ready, getting them in the car, getting them buckled. Making it to the park... Sitting and watching them play and then I start to rush them because I feel as if everyone is talking about me then the kids through a fit all the way home. ..thisbisbwhy i delay foinv out or keepinv pushing days out...,... And i have ao mucb worry aboht how its gojng to make me feel. And the screaming is just getting to a point of like trigger. I just can't take the screaming and crying anymore... It boggles my head ans I start screaming at the kids and I get so upset that they just don't understand how much I do for them and they have no respect for me...but can't complain about it, because I have been raising them so its my fault they act they way they do...... My life everyday is never ending and never changing... I keep with the routine as best as I can . and it's just chaos from wake up to bed time...its fighting and screaming and crying.... I listen to music and hearing screaming and crying in the background when I'm alone in the car... I worry about not be able to go to the Dr about my anxiety, because it takes me weeks to work up to calling them to set an inspection... I know they see me as a crazy person ... I worry about going to my appts and most the time cancel, because I get to worked up to go....then trying to find time to go...dint like asking time OK ff of work, I want them to know I'm a team player.....I worry about everything that doesn'tatter that I can't focus plan any normal grown up responsibility.. Like getting the bills paid, budgeting or even what's for dinner. I can't keep up with all the kids school progress...its too much...I don't support them enough with their school and work . I am too busy worrying about things that don't matter. Great mom, huh. Then everyone tells me over and over again I'm s great mother, and I feel as if I'm portraying s lie. I feel my kids deserve more...... It's too much to explain.... I have lesrnefcacwsy of living where I think I'm going all I can. But then know I'm not at the same time... Doesnt make since ..... How is it that no one can see that I'm not functioning the best but me.

不错的文章。两年前，我在最焦虑的时候做出了糟糕的商业决策。我正在学着慢下来。